lost at sea

i'm lost,
lost at sea.
lost on the sea of my thoughts;
tossing and turning.

where is my navigator?
where is my captain?
where is my first mate,
which way is bow,
port,
starboard.
which way is north.
which way is south.
which way forward.
which way backward.

questions, again.
i thought i had gotten to a good place,
for a while.
but now i'm lost,
all over again.
the horizon has become lost behind the swells,
the clouds are rolling in and i can't fight the rains any longer.
point me to land.
where i can plant my feet and watch the waves from shore.
point me to guidance,
point me to stability.
to clarity.
point me to land.